Overview

So, who is Christian John?

 

Firstly, I find it amusing that some people think I am a big-head, egotistical, greedy, or use any derogatory descriptions for myself. I actually take it as a compliment to who I am today, because the person I am today is someone I am so proud of, despite the world and life constantly destroying or belittling me as it has. I am also not looking to become some self-help guru simply because I am not sure it would apply to many others. 

 

You see I come from nothing, a poor working class family that themselves threw me under a bus and sold me out way before I may have perceived to have sold them out. In school I was the smallest by what felt like a foot, and I mean the smallest, without too much detail I think I hit puberty around 16 or 17, years after everyone else. A virtual runt of the litter. Thin, struggled physically always in sports, found it difficult to concentrate or think, very emotional. I started smoking and drinking heavy in my teens because that’s was what my family and friends at the time did. I always felt tired, ill and as a consequence my grades in school were average at best.

 

It has taken me 30 years of hard work and dedication to get to where I am today. That is one of the most sort after individuals on the planet, if everyone laid their cards on the table honesty, but there is not much of that around. I am who I am today absolutely not because of my background, my upbringing or any of life lessons that anyone has had the power and sadist mentality to throw my way. I am who I am today simply because of who I am and how much effort I have had to put into my life to understand myself. No one gets credit for that, for who I am simply because no one deserves that.

 

The work I have had to put in to understand myself, my body, my mind, continually trying so many different means and ways. Simply because I always knew I was operating at best 10% on every level when I was young. I knew the way I was feeling was not right, the way I was thinking was not right, as if I was being blocked in both ways. Mentally feeling exhausted, physically feeling like having a constant flu. But, it was about life style and the fact that I had to learn that unlike most people I needed to live a healthy life if I want to remove all of the stated. That has taken a focus, will power and determination and a refusal to accept who I was, that runt, that has taken me, said without ego, to the person I am physically, mentally and emotionally today. That is why I actually enjoy the big head and full of ego comments, makes me actually smile bearing all the above in mind. What my life has been and what I have gone through. I cannot tell you how proud I am of myself to a level that no one will ever get close to undermining, simply because no one has either the authority or qualification to. That is why I find others comments totally and absolutely with a zero understanding of that journey and of zero value to myself, of the journey I have had to take to be who I am today. It is just another of societies sanctimonious summaries of something that it understands little about outside of its own hypocrisy. Sarcasm, yes, undermined by truth, always.

 

When I talk if it is too arrogant, too opinionated and too greedy I really do not care. Please tune out and off anytime you want. I do not talk in the confident way I do as a defence mechanism to that runt I was as a child. That child has totally gone, I speak with the confidence, arrogance and requirement that I do because that is who I am today and that is what I want to do. 

 

Briefly, Christian-John is a 54yr old male who has traveled to over a third if not half the world’s countries for both work or pleasure. A global specialist in multiple areas from the data and scientific measurement to the climate and energy sectors but also in simply how the world works. Christian-John, an Aspergers type A personality, that also typically for my type is very diet specific, but would not change it for anything. I adore it. I love it. Again without ego but just fact, many of the most brilliant and famous to have walked the planet have a similar personality, you have to be it to understand it. That has pushed every capacity from the mental, physical to emotional during his life that simply what makes him who he is today. Certainly not a product of anyones else’s input, anyone else’s management of that, that has only resulted in destruction. Christian-John is simply who he is today because that is who he is and he is who he is today inspite of others efforts to either control, manipulate, manage or destroy that. 

 

Mentally, someone who is not compulsive but just adores thinking about anything and everything there is to think about. Not from an OCD perspective, never on a loop, but always continually thinking, concluding and moving forward from that. All self taught, all from a life time of hard work. When I am doing my least I am often doing my most, I do not work or operate like anyone else I know. The ability to understand the complex in the most fundamental of forms in virtually any avenue or area is the true priceless commodity of todays world and Christian-john represents that like few others. from the mathematical, to the scientific, the political, financial, economic and any and whatever is worth understanding in todays world. The ability to understand the information in front of you and not dictated to by anyone.

 

Physically, for over 30 years a resting heart rate in the low 40’s if not high 30’s for many a year. Less than 10% body fat and physically in great shape down to a healthy life style as apposed to any hard regime or training. In a physical shape that most regardless of age would want that he is absolutely very proud of. When I exercise today it is rarely about feeling that pain, that burn, just healthy exercise feeling that strength in your muscles, that air flowing through your lungs and that strong heart and the blood pumping all around your body.  A diet that is often gluten free, limited dairy to at times vegan but absolutely always what is deemed as a healthy requirement or simply what is chosen to eat even with its potential impact. That said, never due to emotional local pressure or a flag or demographic political motive. A famous greek philosopher once stated, "one mans pleasure is another mans poison". Anyone who does not look into their diet themselves when either feeling unwell or unfit I find it staggering that they stick to a regional or political diet, what is deemed their class should eat, whatever motive outside of yourself. But, that said, people do whatever they choose to do. It takes will power, hard work and dedication to be fit, healthy and look well and is not by chance. Even that said I enjoy fine food and fine wine and if and when I choose to partake I choose to partake. I always thought I never liked wine until I realised that I do not like cheap wine. I am beholden to nothing and nobody in regard to that, others can do what they want.

 

Emotionally, the world has tried to with what seems like glee at times destroy Christian-John. Destroy him for who he is, what he says, what he is capable of doing, and how he thinks. A life time of emotional pressure from early childhood to adult hood, from family and friends, to someone who you would never believe is alone in the world but is totally alone. But, and this again is the important aspect, one of the few people who has the emotional strength to be alone. To have no one at the end of the phone, to chat with, talk with, deal with life with. The strength it takes to be alone I am not sure many if any truly understand the strength that takes. The loneliness I am talking about here is not from the perspective of an elderly person who has no one to talk to, not even close. I am talking about the ability to be alone even when the whole world at times is crashing onto your shoulders and to absorb that and still remain alone and deal with that virtually alone. That takes real strength, inner strength, character of the highest level especially when maintaining the integrity, principles and ethics that I have always stood for that I am also extremely proud in regard to. Being alone is not something I particularly enjoy, it is not a choice, I prefer to have people around me but if they are not the right people then alone is for me the better option. There are valid reasons why I am alone and I am grateful that I am strong enough to be able to be alone. I also find it amusing that some people state I am not a team player and am too selfish and self absorbed. Virtually every team I have been involved in has been a case of you do it my way, hop skip and jump in the direction I state, that is being a team player. If that is a team player then correct, I am not a team player, and why not? Because I am Christian John.

 

You could state that Christian-John could be an inspiration for others, but possibly not, there are many issues to that. Firstly, you need to fit into a box and represent something, have a story and stick to some marketable principles and politics. Anytime you break from that, eat something different, do something different then you have the potential of being labelled a hypocrite. Christian-John will always do what is a decision at that time, that moment, and nothing more.

 

But, secondly, and possibly even more important. When I was at university, a lecture where it was stated that a shark has never been found with cancer. I actually stated at the time is that because whenever they try to light a cigarette it goes out in the water. I had a sense of humour back then but not a great one as very few laughs. But the point was everyone thought that you had a cure for cancer there and then. Unfortunately it was not about a chemical in their blood or some means of chemical synthesis but simply their DNA which is the equivalent of stating you have never seen cancer in a plant so is totally limited in being able to transfer it. From that perspective, I would state that I have been fortunate to have been born with the DNA I have and would never change who I am for anyone else, or any part of me that I say that without ego and fact after all it was not me who built my genes but am a happy recipient. I do wonder if for example if someone followed my advice, life, my behaviour, my thinking, my eating habits to my exercise how much would they benefit and how much is simply down to my genes and myself understanding what works for me. At the end of the day it comes down to each person understanding themselves and what works for them and no one else. Be that diet, life style, thinking, every part of their life. If they need someone to tell them that, myself included, then they are always going to be at the end of what someone is selling them, with little if any consideration to what is best for them. 

 

So, from one of the most un-famous but globally famous individuals on the planet, one of the most sought after individuals on the planet for many a year, world class in many an area, second to very few. Who has earned whatever confidence or ego that you hear that is undebatable is looking for the funding and investment that frankly should have happened a long time ago. I am asking for all that cannot write that cheque, to politely and respectfully move out of the way and allow the people who can and want to write that cheque to be allowed to.